12.09.2013

It's tough...

Not gonna sugar coat it or lie about it, keeping up with this blog has proven to be more difficult than I had thought. The inconsistency of posts grates at me daily, I feel like I am letting you all down. At the same time with the limited time that I have in the evening or on the weekends, I have to prioritize my life and clearly this blog has taken a back seat in terms of priorities. With Baby Henning coming next month and Sean's cross country season over, I am now being selfish with the time I do get with Sean before we become a family of three or five if you want to count Kip and Kimbia. For moms, was that the case for you, were you more conscious of the remaining weekends you and your husband had left before your first born was set to arrive?
It has been a major balance since starting this job of doing everything I want to do with everything that I need to do while being pregnant. I have had to set aside some of my usuals because I don't have the time anymore, for crying out loud, the only Christmas decoration I have pulled out is the Christmas quilt my mom sowed for me. Yup, that is it, kinda pathetic isn't it? 
This feeling of what I want to do (often not accomplished) and what I need to do leaves me feeling stressed and upset that I can't accomplish more of what I want to do. Being pregnant too leaves me pretty emotional, lets just leave it at that. 

So there you have it, what has been on my heart and mind lately... 

13 comments:

  1. It's hard even for me sometimes and I'm not pregnant and starting a new job! But Take the time you need and we can follow along with you on IG or where ever. We'll be here when you come back always :) And thank you so much for your sweet email yesterday. You are such a source of kindness and spiritual inspiration for me! XOXO

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  2. It's hard to keep everything together and post regularly for me, and I'm not pregnant. I think you just do what you need to do and it will be fine. Will we miss some of your posts, sure, but your life is meant to be lived :)

    xoxo

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  3. Oh man, please do NOT feel guilty about any of this. The last two weeks have left me overly emotional and just...drained. To be honest, I never thought I'd feel this way and it leaves me feeling guilty in itself. I see some mom-to-be's completely glowing and so over the top happy, accomplishing every last task months prior to their due date and I'm over here just trying to stay awake at my desk at work. I feel like over the last two weeks especially, I get this overwhelmingly sense of my body just not being able to do what it normally can do and of course, I realize that and feel even more frustrated and end up in tears and being sleep deprived doesn't help (gulp). It's just frustrating, and I thought after we went through everything we did I'd get one of those "happy and vibrant pregnancy cards" but apparently that card missed my house and I instead got the 'pregnant and emotionally/physically defeated card'. :) I'm here if you ever want to vent, pregnancy is HARD and the time goes by way too fast. I'm already feeling antsy thinking about all the of the plans we have over the next two months and I just want a free weekend with my husband! I know you're further ahead of me but you have every right to feel the way you feel! Xo

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  4. It's definitely hard. My blog posts have dwindled to weekly or if I'm lucky, bi-weekly posts that pretty much just document what we've been up to. While I so badly want to document all of our fun family outings--it's more important for me to be in the moment and actually experience those outings instead of just observing them with a camera in my face. The time you're in right now was a hard one for me as well--I remember being so excited and anxious to meet our little girl, but at the same time I was cherishing, and to some extent mourning a little bit, the time that Nick & I had together before our world was turned upside down! Hang in there girl, I know that you're doing the best you can!

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  5. Do not feel bad about it!! If you think it's hard now just wait until the baby comes!!! Then you really lose all your free time for awhile. As someone who just had a baby you need to savior your remaining free time with your husband because once the baby comes your relationship is going to take a back seat for awhile and it's important to really enjoy yourselves and be selfish before you're busy caring for a baby 24/7. Neglect the blog before your husband and real life!

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  6. no need to feel sorry for living your life! and it's only bound to get more eventful when the little guy comes :)

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  7. Girl it's your blog - post as much or as little as you want! Don't let it stress you out!

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  8. It is so tough Meg. Believe me...it gets harder to balance once baby comes. I'm still trying to get the hang of two! Take all the time you need! It's precious!

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  9. I'm with you. I think I've blogged once in two months. Don't feel guilty just post when you can. I always love reading your posts : )

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  10. Take your time lady! Sure we miss you when you're not here but we know life is like it's never been before and you're setting priorities. I don't blame you for a minute!

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  11. Suck up every moment you can! We all understand how life is. Juggling relationships, babies (or a pregnancy) and a blog is difficult. I recently started a new job and I barely have any time to do anything. Glad to hear you're doing well and I bet you're getting so excited to meet your little one!!

    xo
    Rachel

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  12. chica. sit down. breathe. ok . You are doing an amazing job. There was an article floating around fb about moms trying to create these magical christmas seasons for their kids and the moms were flipping out because sprinkles on the floor table and dog were stressing them out. So don't decorate cookies with your 2 year old...it's ok. The same goes for you...if all you do is set out a holiday quilt and make out with your husband on it...so be it! lol. who cares. you will find once baby henning comes along it will be even HARDER to be all things to all people...so just do you! if your blog posts are sporadic or disjointed who gives? I abandoned my blog after I found out about baby number two and I might pick it up later but if I don't the world keeps spinning. Maybe you should just look at the blog as a diary - or a way of just sharing whats on your heart daily. And if it's your baby pictures, christmas tree photos or last nights lasagna then cool...no one's got a gun to your head to do a post a day or be the next, babbles best blogger award winner..so just do not worry about it. enjoy your husband while it's still you and him and then just enjoy that baby when he shows up but don;t feel guilt about something you used to LOVE to do...everyone changes...merry christmas

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  13. First off, you were on my mind this morning and I hope all is better with the hubby. Secondly, yes, I did find myself slowing down the last few weekends on blogging before Baby B to enjoy those alone moments with my hubby that I knew we wouldn't have for like another 20 years! LOL Because of your blog topics you may find it a little easier to keep blogging but be prepared Baby Henning will consume all of your time. I'm finding it nearly impossible to keep up a craft blog because of the time it requires for creating the project and then writing about it!

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