9.30.2013

my worries...

Ok last week there were some fun pregnancy-related posts, maternity fashion and items that will be for the nursery. But this is not a as much fun type of pregnancy post, just to warn you all from the beginning. This is a suddenly I find myself stressing or worrying about this new life coming in January type of post. The nagging thoughts that have been circling in my head lately, the almost a new mom type of anxiety and worry, that is what this post is about. The what ifs about future parenting...
Here I go. 
Maybe it has something to do with the "gulp we have less than halfway left of this pregnancy," we are doing a hospital tour this Thursday night and right now there is a crib, put together, not laying around in pieces standing in the nursery right now. Or it could be the realization of how much cute and sweet is a pregnant belly but a BIG responsibility comes at the end of this pregnancy. Speaking of pregnancy,  I have reached that point in this pregnancy when strangers are asking me when I am due. 

The point is I am stressing about things I have never had to stress about before, the mom stress, the what ifs, the how will I manage, the will I be good enough?

I went to a baby shower on Saturday night and there is nothing like celebrating a new life for wonderful friends. Then the next day an acquaintance I know from college posted that her son who was 5 days ago passed away. Those posts tug at my heart strings in a new way I haven't felt before. 
This process of preparing to be a mother obviously physically and emotionally is breaking down the walls of selfishness, knowing that a tiny person is solely dependent upon Sean and I. 
I found this pin on Pinterest that sums up my emotions rather perfectly especially the fears portion.
p.s. I'm not trying to turn this blog into a baby blog, I promise :-) 

16 comments:

whit | Black Little Button blog said...

awe. no matter what dear. you will be a wonderful mother. you were born to be one, and it's a gift so precious that He gave you it because he knew you can handle it, without a doubt.
-whit

TheTinyHeart said...

I think the fears you are having are totally normal!

-Sharon
The Tiny Heart
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Discovery Street said...

After I had Parker I couldn't read articles about sick or hurt children anymore....having a kid transforms you...I've never felt worry or fear this strong, but I also understand Christs love so much more. And it puts me in a place of total reliance.

Simply LKJ said...

A quote I love is "God doesn't ask about your ability or inability, he asks about your availability."
It is normal to have the feelings you are having as it is a big life change. But remember, God chose YOU to be THIS little boys momma.

Lauren said...

oh girl, please know that all of these feelings were completely normal! Because they actually do let you walk (or be pushed in a wheelchair) out those hospital doors with no instruction manual! Trust me, you are going to be an amazing mom...this momma right here was SO SCARED, but just follow your gut and know that no matter what...you're HIS momma & YOU know best!

brooke lyn said...

i think fears are a good thing, because it means you know it's a big responsibility, but you're going to rock it!!!!!!

Alexa said...

Oh Meg...it is amazing the fears, the anxieties that come along with being a parent. I can't watch certain movies any more...but it's just doing the best that we can. You're not alone in your worries I think it just comes with being a mommy.

Heather said...

That is a great quote, and I definitely think it's normal for new moms and moms-to-be to experience these types of worries.

the girl in the red shoes said...

Oh honey....I know it's crazy overwhelming and so hard not to worry.You will be a wonderful mother. Your baby won't care if his room is perfect or even if his crib is put together...all he will care about is being close to you. The worrying never goes away but you learn to let go and let God take care of that. Sending you a big fat virtual hug!

Ashley said...

You will be a great mom!! You have done a great job with your puppies and it all works out once that little one is in your arms!!

Baby blogs and mom blogs are great!! We blog to share things about our lives or things that interest us. Having a baby is a big part of your life so it's only natural that you want to share and us readers want to know!!

Katie said...

I totally understand exactly what you are saying! We have less than 6 weeks to go and I'm start to feel totally overwhelmed...do we have everything we need, will I know what to do with her once we get her home, etc. etc. So much to think/worry about. Everybody keeps telling me that these thoughts are normal and we are all starting from the same point. Here's to keeping positive :)

Laura {happily ever} Parker said...

I think those fears are very rational and I know my mom says "the worrying never goes away". Just do the best you can and little Henning will be just fine!

Sarah said...

I think they are normal fears and I'm sure I would be feeling the exact same way! Everything will work out perfectly! :)

Caroline said...

Everyone has those fears. I already have one and I'm due with #2 in January and I am still worried.

Jennifer @ Delightfully Noted said...

I would be concerned if you weren't having these fears!! Being a new mama I can tell you it's all perfectly normal and personally I think these thoughts and fears are what makes women good mothers. PS. Welcome to parenthood.....a world of worrying and it only gets worse once they place that little bambino in your arms but oh soooo worth it!!

Leah said...

i couldn't agree with that quote more. we all fear not being good enough mothers, but when your little one is there in your arms, a newfound strenght and know how comes to you. plus the love that you will pour over your little one will speak higher volumes than anything else. you will be a great mother friend.