Ok last week there were some fun pregnancy-related posts, maternity fashion and items that will be for the nursery. But this is not a as much fun type of pregnancy post, just to warn you all from the beginning. This is a suddenly I find myself stressing or worrying about this new life coming in January type of post. The nagging thoughts that have been circling in my head lately, the almost a new mom type of anxiety and worry, that is what this post is about. The what ifs about future parenting...
Here I go.
Maybe it has something to do with the "gulp we have less than halfway left of this pregnancy," we are doing a hospital tour this Thursday night and right now there is a crib, put together, not laying around in pieces standing in the nursery right now. Or it could be the realization of how much cute and sweet is a pregnant belly but a BIG responsibility comes at the end of this pregnancy. Speaking of pregnancy, I have reached that point in this pregnancy when strangers are asking me when I am due.
The point is I am stressing about things I have never had to stress about before, the mom stress, the what ifs, the how will I manage, the will I be good enough?
I went to a baby shower on Saturday night and there is nothing like celebrating a new life for wonderful friends. Then the next day an acquaintance I know from college posted that her son who was 5 days ago passed away. Those posts tug at my heart strings in a new way I haven't felt before.
This process of preparing to be a mother obviously physically and emotionally is breaking down the walls of selfishness, knowing that a tiny person is solely dependent upon Sean and I.
I found this pin on Pinterest that sums up my emotions rather perfectly especially the fears portion.
p.s. I'm not trying to turn this blog into a baby blog, I promise :-)