5.15.2014

growth

Today I am confessing something and going deep with you, revealing a part of me that I am scared to do in fact. 

I am not very good at going out of my comfort zone. 
I am not very good at letting my guard down.
(thank goodness my God is bigger than the above)

The last couple of months have been out of my comfort zone. I am doing things that slightly scare me and cause me to want to curl up in bed and shut out the world. Yes, that might be my reaction when I am asked to go out of my comfort zone. 

It is hard, hard to step out. It is hard to say the things that I need to say because I feel I will sound stupid. I do care a little too much of what others think of me. 

One reason I am afraid to go out of my comfort zone is because I am afraid of saying the wrong thing. 
I care what others think of me, not as much as I used to but still I care. 
It is hard trying something new and stepping out of my comfort zone.
It is my fears that hold me back - the fear of failure, the fear of doing it wrong and the fear that I won't be good at it and Satan is really good at using my fears to continue to hold me back.

There are new things I am trying the last few months, motherhood is certainly among them, and they scare me at times. Some days I feel confident about what I am doing that is taking me out of my comfort zone, other days I wish it were easier and at times I admit I feel like giving up. The reason I am stepping out of my comfort zone is for something greater and I am afraid the thing I don't want the most could possibly become a reality one day. 

But I'm working at it, one day by one day at stepping out of my comfort zone because I believe that God will provide so I can continue doing what my heart's desire is, staying at home with my precious Caleb.

Speaking of growth, I mentioned my Mother's Day present was a growth chart for Caleb that Sean made. Here is the chart that we can take with us to any house we live at.
He is just shy 24 inches tall now :-)

15 comments:

Simply LKJ said...

Love the growth chart Sean made. I so wish I had made one for each of my girls. I have thought about going back and doing it now that they are grown (I have their records). I can relate to stepping outside your comfort zone for sure. It can be very scary at times, but you are SO right, God is much bigger than all that.

Pamela {Sequins and Sea Breezes} said...

OMG that growth chart is SO cute! My mom had one for me when I was growing up and I definitely want to do one for my kids when I have them. I completely agree with stepping out of your comfort zone (it's one of the main reasons I don't have kids right now!). It's definitely difficult doing and I'm trying to do it more with my blog (I get scared of actually writing posts instead of just doing pics) but its a day to day process! :)

<3, Pamela
sequinsandseabreezes.blogspot.com

brooke lyn said...

you're not the only one that feels this way when it comes to stepping out. I hate the feeling too! I am sure you being a new mom will help though!

Amy said...

You and Caleb are sooo cute! What a sweet Daddy Sean is!

I sooo resonate with worrying what others will think. I get stuck in overanalyzing things I said, thinking about them for 100X longer than I'm certain anyone else does. Definitely something I'm trying to work on with God right now! He is so, so good. :)

awhite said...

I'm with you, girl- change is hard and stepping out of your comfort zone is, well- uncomfortable (and scary). But you can dooooo it! Proud of you for tackling things that scare you! :)

-Ashley
http://lestylorouge.com

MakeMeUpMia said...

That picture is precious. Stepping out of your comfort zone can sometimes result in amazing things! Good for you!

Jillian Manesh said...

good for you stepping out of your comfort zone and trying new things :) xo jillian - cornflake dreams

Shelby {Recent Somethings} said...

Aw he is just the cutest. Love how the chart turned out and that you can keep it if you move. Good for you on wanting to make changes :)

BLovedBoston said...

First of all that photo is just too cute!! Hope everything works out for the best (which I'm sure it will) we all have to take chances to reap really big rewards!!

Sarah said...

What a great Mother's Day gift! Stepping out of your comfort zone only makes you grow as a person as you gain new experiences, whether bad or good, they're all learning experiences. I'm sure you'll do great! Just gotta take that first step...

Becky M said...

I'm the same way - I love routine! That last pic is the cutest!!

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JumpingJE said...

That magical place past your comfort zone becomes easier each and every time you willingly step foot out there into the unknown.

birdie to be said...

That Mother's Day gift was so sweet and love that pic!

Christina Schergen said...

give me words to speak is often my prayer....i am so afraid to say the wrong thing especially when someone is hurting or mourning that i freeze up and often say nothing...something I am working on to change and can only i change with words the holy spirit gives me. great post!

Lacey said...

I can relate, but I feel I am getting better. I don't care nearly as much as I used to about what others think, but I do care about how I come across. So good for you :)