i've been so stupid...

This is a confessional post all, get ready for some real, honest and true feelings. Long before I started this blog, I was unhappy, mainly because of my job. When I first started it was everything, but I also didn't have a lot of friends, that's just the way things were. It was that weird, awkward post college time when most people moved away. Anyways but I truly loved my job, and just for protection's sake I won't reveal where I work, hope none of you are disappointed. Then about 2 years after I started, that love feeling just dropped. It didn't drop slow, it hit the hate level HARD. I didn't have the luxury of finding a new job though, I was in grad school at the time so it was very convenient to continue that at my current job. I was crying out to God, asking Him why I didn't like my job, and to help me.

And here I am 5 years after I started my job, still there, still wanting a way out, asking God to provide something all the time, asking Him to provide me encouragement until that new job comes along. Well Friday comes and within 3 days of sending in a resume, I am set up with an interview. Now whether God provides this as my new job, it doesn't matter that much to me right now. I am just focused on this interview and asking Him to help with me that, going step by step, not getting ahead of myself. But you know the encouragement that I was praying for was there all the time, I didn't realize it at the time, but He was providing the encouragement. Through this blog, which gave me excitement that I have been lacking recently, through all of you fellow bloggers who are so sweet in your comments, through my friends and the plethora that God has provided. I'll even say some of the blog giveaways that I have won are encouragement, just something sweet to help me during the rough times. Through my husband who is always there for me, and of course coming home every day to the two sweetest dogs, the frustrations just melt away. I feel a dissatisfaction sitting at a job for 40 hours a week feeling like my life is wasting away and getting to that point in my job where I was settling. I was settling at 27! How scary is that!

I have been kicking myself since Friday because I have been so stupid, not seeing that God has been providing the encouragement that I have been asking for. God always answers prayer in one of three ways, yes, no or wait. Regardless of his answer, He ALWAYS has a reason for how He answers my prayers.

Today I am just reflecting on that fact that again God has shown me I am not in control ever, even though I pretend that I am. I'll leave you with this: On Friday during my morning run, I was asking God that I would receive an email that day from the person I sent my resume, to get acknowledgement of my resume. Guess what? He answered, I got an email. Then several hours later, a phone call from the HR department to set up an interview. Fortunately, I have this extra day in the weekend to prepare, but I am still in awe that God answered my specific prayer request. Recently, I wrote a guest post over at Ashley's blog, Diary of a Reporter on how I know God listens to His children.  I have an additional item to add to that growing list!

Thank you all for listening, I hope you are having a wonderful holiday spending it with your friends and family, enjoying the bbqs, pool parties and the end of wearing white, although I will continue to!